I am really enjoying my Pharmacy Tech course through ETSU. I’m in the second week of the course and I think I’m doing ok. I can do the math…I can even set up the conversion problems!!
The professor suggested that we learn about two drugs a day so today I learned about Fentanyl and Ativan. These were two drugs that Gus took a lot. I remember one time, after surgery, Gus was waking up and he looked over at me with the oldest grandpa eyes I have ever seen. His “Fentanyl-eyes” were just too much…so sweet…he was one tough little guy and I miss him very much!
I have been thinking a lot about Psalm 21:2-6 lately. I have it marked in my bible because it makes me think of when Gus died.
You have granted him the desire of his heart
and have not withheld the request of his lips.
Chaplain Sandy once said to me that Gus had prayers too and that maybe his prayer was different than ours. She was right…I do truly think that Gus’ heart’s desire was to be with our Father and to be able to rest. I think about all the time that Gus was on the ventilator with tons of meds onboard…and I know that he was conversing with God! Oh, how I would love to have heard those conversations…hopefully one day I will have that privilege in Heaven.
You welcomed him with rich blessings
and placed a crown of pure gold on his head.
I can’t help but think that upon Gus’ arrival into Heaven, that God was awaiting him with the words I long to hear “Well done good and faithful servant!” Gus was truly a good and faithful servant even though he only grew to be 16 months old. His life glorified God in so many ways and drew us all closer to our Father. I also can’t help but see a little golden crown resting upon his precious little head!
He asked you for life, and you gave it to him—
length of days, for ever and ever.
I think that is exactly what Gus asked for…LIFE. So God gave him just that..Eternal Life!
Through the victories you gave, his glory is great;
you have bestowed on him splendor and majesty.
God brought Gus through many different battles and he made Gus victorious in all of them…even in death Gus was given the most perfect victory of all! Certainly my little sweet boy has been bestowed with splendor and majesty!
Surely you have granted him eternal blessings
and made him glad with the joy of your presence.
My heart is full of joy just thinking about the eternal blessings that Gus is enjoying now..even as I am writing this post. Of course, the most precious blessing is that of being in the presence of Jesus…I can imagine Gus and Jesus together in Heaven. This is one of my favorite things to think about…I’ve even written about it in an unfinished novel. My mind can’t even wrap itself around all the wonders that Gus is experiencing!
So, I may cry and certainly I will miss Gus as long as I’m on this side of Heaven…but I am so pleased that I got to meet him and love him!!